Thursday, May 17, 2012

Old habits

I found a lump on my breast this past week. I was stressing about it and waiting on the results of my mamo/sono. Of course I ate and I ate to relieve the stress. I should know better that it doesn't help!

I haven't used food in a while to deal with stress. It really got the best of me. I feel bloated and terrible. I'm going on vacation today and I didn't want to leave like this feeling crappy, but it is what it is. Thank God my results came back normal! So happy for that, so hopefully now I can resume my normal eating habits.

Of course my patience is being tested because I woke up to a clogged toilet this morning. So now I'm off to the store to buy a plunger. I don't know why I never had one.

How do you handle stress? Does stress make you eat?

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Change is coming

I found out that I got the job! I'm pretty excited about it! I'm doing my best to take things one day at at time. I know it's a great opportunity for my family and I.

Like all things in life there will be an adjustment period, but I'm ready to take it on. I know change has always been so hard for me, but I'm going to embrace it. I know that this will give us the help we need and also will help me to grow as a person.

On another note, I have manged to loose some weight which is great. I feel that I'm in a good place for the most part. I have more to loose and seem to be at a stand still for the moment, but I know it won't be for long.

How do you handle change?

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Fear of change

I haven't been that consistent on my blog these days. I just like to pop in when I really feel the need to share something. It works better for me that way.

As some of you may know, I stay home and babysit my niece Mon- Thurs. for income. It's not much, but it takes care of the food shopping. I enjoy it and I also enjoy the flexibility it gives me to be home for my son. I also get Friday to get errands done. It works out well and I can enjoy the weekend with my family.

We get by, we rarely have extra money. We do have to do without somethings like, clothes or going out. We are pretty much ok with that and have learned to really work with what we have and be happy. With that said, of course having a little more would be very helpful.

I applied for a part time job at the library back in Jan. and they called me for an interview this past Monday. I think it went well and now it's just the waiting game.

It sounds great, but of course my fear kicked in after the interview and I have been panicking. I have a big fear of change, always have. I usually run at the site of things being scary. Fear feels like it's paralyzing me honestly! I feel like there is no way that I can go back to working. I have a full day as it is here, I'm just so nervous.

I went through so many emotions the past few days. I finally prayed on it and accepted that if it is meant to be God will give me the job, and give me the strength to do it! If I don't get it I will accept that.

I have to say I have realized just how much our thoughts get in the way. I want to push past this fear and come out stronger. I know it will be worth it if I do. I know I will grow.