Bump In The Road

I said I would be back daily to write things that I'm grateful for, but life got a little crazy for me.

There was an incident with my Son. I don't really want to get into it here, but with that said things were pretty bad for a couple of weeks. I do believe that things happen for a reason. My Husband and I learned from this experience. I'm looking at life a little differently, but in a good way.

As far as my eating goes, when I get very stressed my appetite turns off. That is probably the only time that it does turn off  : ) 

I lost a couple of pounds during this stressful time. I know it's not the best way to do it. I realized that when I'm stressed I don't think about food, I'm too focused on the problem at hand. This makes me realize that I can eat like a normal person. I know that it's possible because when I'm stressed I only think of food when I'm starving! I just wish I could do that on a normal day.

I have resumed my normal eating since the stress has subsided. Normal eating sometimes means eating too many sweets out of boredom, or worry like I did today.  Hoping to get this eating thing worked out someday soon.

grat·i·tude   

The quality or feeling of being grateful or thankful:

 

I struggle with the concept of gratitude. I feel like I'm thankful and grateful, but I always seems to slip back into complaining and being negative.  I never really get it.  I'm trying to work on this. I have so much to be thankful for.

 

I seem to always start projects or have ideas, but never see them through.  That is going to end today!  I'm going to start a gratitude journal. I think this is a good way to remember the little things in life that we often forget.  

 

 

If you have sometime, please watch this video. This is the reason that I'm writing about this topic today.  

Today I'm grateful that I can sit home and relax....since I had a busy day yesterday

I'm grateful for my beautiful family who loves me no matter what

I'm grateful to see the sun come out and feel the cool breeze through my windows

Arsenic In Rice

I know this might be a little late since the new about Arsenic in Rice came out last week, but I haven't really had time to blog until now.

I'm not sure that I want to eat rice in any form after hearing the news. I just recently purchased a 10lb bag of rice since it was on sale. I figured I always use it and it was a great deal and would last a while. Now, I have not idea what to do.

Dr. Oz stated that if you eat rice you should rinse if first and then boil it in six times the water, draining all water out once it's cooked. I feel that is a lot to do just to eat rice and not sure if it's worth it. Once something gets into my head that's it!

What do you think of this news, and how are you handling it?

Eczema

I was told a few month ago by the Dermatologist that I had eczema on my finger. It was a constant dry scaly patch on my finger. At first I thought it was dry skin, but it just got worse.

I used the medication that was prescribed for 2 weeks and it got better. It has started coming back now. Something told me to do some research. I came across a few sites that claim it eczema could be caused by certain foods such as, dairy, wheat, grains, and sugar.

I love all of them! I can't image really living without any of these foods, but at the same time I feel like one of them could be the problem. The only way for me to find out is to just cut back on these three one at a time and see if I notice any changes. I'm starting with dairy. So I will see how it goes.

The thing that bothers me most is that I just went for a physical and had blood work, I'm completely healthy! Ugh, just don't get it. I'm hoping I get some answers soon. For now I'm trying to figure this out on my own before going back to the Dr. I started using the cream again.

On another note, I haven't binged or emotionally eaten at all this week. I'm really fighting to eat only when I'm hungry.

Food rut

So the title of this post says it all, I'm in a big time food rut! I just have lost the desire for the foods I was once enjoying. I don't like when I get like this. I just need to try some new things and some new recipes.

I'm going to check out some blogs for some new recipes or healthy snacks for this week.

I finally let go of those negative feelings that came along with the family drama that was going on...thank God! I realize that emotions and stress will always be part of life. I have to remember to give myself credit for how far I have come.

One thing I notice has changed about me is, I now have a voice. I might let things stress me and will emotionally eat at times, but once I figure it out I'm able to speak up about my feelings. That used to be impossible for me. I would just take all the negativity out on myself.

I know i'm not where I want to be just yet, but thank God I'm not where I used to be!

At a standstill

It's been a while since I've blogged. I just haven't had the motivation to be honest. I really was in a groove for a while with eating well and I even started to loose some weight.

It was all good until I had a family argument and then I started emotionally eating again...big time! I haven't been on a roll like this in quite sometime...sad to say. I'm no longer taking my feelings out on myself. This week I'm fighting to only eat when I'm truly hungry. It sounds easy, but not for an emotional eater.

I don't want to be a downer, but at times I wonder if I will ever break this bad habit? I know that I will, but sometimes my head wants to tell me I won't. I'm a fighter, and I'm not giving up.

Here are some photos of my summer thus far...it has been a great one!

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Back to the routine

Well, I tried something new. It didn't work, but I gave it a shot. I worked for a week at the new job and it didn't seem to be working. My boss said I wasn't catching as quick as I should be, making the same mistakes. She said it's a very tedious job and not for everyone. I was having a little bit of anxiety over it I have to to admit. I felt like working and babysitting all day was a lot on me and my family. My husband had to come home from work tired, and cook and iron and pack lunches for the next day. I felt for a lot of reasons it wasn't working out.

Although I feel relieved I still feel in the back of my mind that I should have stuck it out. I have to remember that in my heart I just knew it wasn't the job for me. I deserve to be happy and not to settle for a job just for the money. I have done that in the past and it was never worth it.

I haven't been treating my body well through this transition. I have been eating emotionally for weeks now. I know that I'm doing it, but I feel like I'm just letting it happen. I know things will get back to normal soon, but I still feel a bit panicked about money. Like I need to run out and find another job. My thoughts are just all over the place.

I have been happy being home, money has been tight, but I was ok with it. Since I had this job offer I  feel like maybe I'm not ok with money being tight. I just have to really sit and figure out what I want to do.

I want to be there to help my sister with babysitting, but I do feel that we need some extra income. It's hard to find something that will work for both of those situations. I guess I have to have some faith and be patient and remember that something will turn up in time.