Real Life

Real Life means that you aren't always perfect, at least to me it does. I posted last about being in a really good place with my relationship to food.  That is still true, but it doesn't mean that things don't creep back in on some days.

I tend to get these "diet" thoughts every now and then. I hear about someone on some "diet" and I kinda get hooked into the idea and it ends up making me eat emotionally, or binge. In my head I start thinking about going on a "diet" and it makes me feel deprived just thinking about it. I imagine not being able to eat certain foods such as sugar anymore and I end up eating them more and obsessing over food even more!

I admit, that I catch myself and recover much sooner than in the past so, that is something I'm so proud of.

I talked with a blogger friend last night through email regarding her take on eating sugar and binging and I just wanted to share a post from her blog that I thought was very helpful to me.


http://www.christieinge.com/intuitive-eating-sugar/ _ Christie is awesome!


I realize that for me sugar tends to be a problem. I love Christie's idea of a food mood journal! I plan on keeping one for myself to really get to the bottom of my issues with sugar. Christie reminded me that part of Intuitive Eating is to really listen to your body for EVERYTHING! I don't know why I forgot that the same goes when figuring out how I feel when eating sugar.

I can't go by so and so who is following a carb free, sugar free way off living....that might be good for so and so, but I have to find my own way. Thanks again Christie!

Cake in the morning

I have to stop in when something seems important for me to share.  This morning was one of those times.

This morning I ate my breakfast which was a banana and a small tortilla with eggs, tomato and cheese. I wasn't as satisfied this morning, and still felt hungry.

My sister dropped off the baby this morning and brought me a half of a cake she baked. Right away I wanted a piece. The cake was on my mind for about 10 minutes. I kept telling myself you can have a piece later, but the truth is I was hungry and cake sounded good to me at that moment so I went for it. I feel satisfied now.

This is what listening to your body is all about. Some mornings you want some cake and that's ok, your body will never fail to tell you want it wants and needs. It's your emotions that are evil  and get in the way : )

As long as I know that I'm not eating for an emotion and I'm truly at peace with eating what I'm about to eat it, always feels right.

I decided to make Friday's my official weigh in day of the week. I was getting way too dependent on the scale multiple times a day. I put it away for now and I'm taking it out once a week to check in. I'm trying my best to not get hung up on the number. Either way I'm eating better, exercising and trying to manage my emotions. What more can I do?

I'm happy with where I am right now.

Have a wonderful day!!

TEDxChandler - Michelle May - Eat What You Love, Love What You Eat

This video just says it perfectly.

Popping in to say hello

I haven't posted in a while. I don't really have a reason either. I guess I just haven't had much that I wanted to share.

I have been doing very well these days. I think after all this time (about a year) and hard work, I finally got it! I think I understand what my body needs and doesn't need, when I'm full and when I'm really hungry. Not to sound cocky, I know nothing is ever perfect, but I know that I feel like I'm in a great place.

I finally see a drop in the scale. It read 167.6 this morning! I have not see that number in a few years. I know it's not all about the numbers, but as some of you know I am actively trying to loose some weight. I also fit into a pair of jeans that I haven't fit into for quite some time! I'm feeling pretty proud.

Thanks to all the family and friends that have helped me through the good and bad....xoxox

Happy Friday!!!

Moving on

Today I got a little stressed and allowed myself to find relief in a piece of cake and a munchkin.  It happend, but I learned from it.

I learned that I was seeking release from frustration. I consciously took out the cake and first said I would have a bite, I went back for another bite which turned into a piece and a munchkin. I'm fine about it and I'm moving on now. I have already forgiven myself for not dealing with the stress properly.

Besides being stressed I was also pretty hungry. I was babysitting my niece and nephew and things got hectic so I didn't have a chance to grab my morning snack. So my nephew left and my niece is sleeping so I grabbed the first sweet treat I could see.

My lunch is now heating up so hopefully once I get a good meal in me I will be back to myself. I just read this morning in the book The Rules of Normal Eating, that even normal eaters mess up and even they overeat sometimes. So with that in mind I will not be hard on myself for this. I guess it's just a part of life sometimes right?

Scattered thoughts

I haven't posted much lately. Every time I went to compose a post I was just at a loss for words. I'm doing really well these days. I feel that I'm in control of my hunger/fullness at least 70% of the time which is a great accomplishment.

Upon recommendation by Marisa I went to the library and took out the book The rules of Normal Eating. I'm enjoying it so far and I'm sure I will be almost done reading it by the end of the week.

I tried pilates today and really enjoyed it for a change. I thought it wasn't doing much at first, but realized that I was using muscles that I hadn't used before : )

My camera broke so most of my pictures these days are on a camera phone which isn't so great.


I heard  a quote today that I fell in love with...Don't just talk about it BE about it. I love it and that is now my mantra for 2012. This is the year I'm getting things done. I'm not going to continue to say I want to or I wish or I should have, I'm taking action this year my friends!

Christmas update

Well hello there, I hope everyone enjoyed their Christmas festivities with family and friends. I know I did. I ate what I loved and if I was feeling full I tried to stop eating. I'm proud to say that I have maintained my weight through Christmas! Usually you know how it goes, you eat like crazy and vow to diet as your New Year's resolution. I'm so happy those days are behind me.

It feels great to know that I don't have to put myself on a crash diet come the New Year. I can just do exactly what I'm doing now. I will try to honor my body the best I can. I did slack on exercise this past week, only 1 or 2 days, but I'm ok with it. I know that next week I will be back on track. The reason I say next week is because I'm going away tonight to my in laws until sunday. We always spend about a week there and have a big New Year's party. It's always a blast, with a lot of eating and drinking going on. This year I hope it will be different since I have a different mentality about it. I want to come back and feel good!

I hope you all have a Happy and Healthy New Year! Here are some photos from Christmas.