Stuggling

I'm struggling so much with emotional eating lately. I'm not sure if it's the stress around this time of year or what, but I feel like I'm going backwards again.

I have read many books on this topic with hopes of having an instant cure. I know that this is my own journey and I have to do the work. I think books and websites can be helpful, but if i'm not implementing any of the tools, nothing is going to change!

I have done a lot of research this week and I came up with some ways I can try to help myself. Here is goes....

Wait 15 min before you give into a binge - I have tried this once this week and it worked. I had to fight hard with myself, but I beat the binge that night. I gave myself time to figure out what was going on. I went on the computer and reached out to friends on a message board.

Have a list of things to do when you feel the need to binge - I haven't done this, but I'm going to write my list today. If I don't have any plan in place I can't expect to beat it right?

Things to do other than binge 

1. Listen to music

2. Take a shower/bath 

3. Go on the computer 

4. Journal my feelings 

5. Go for a walk/ visit or call a friend


I also would like to start either making jewelry or knitting. I hear that these things help and are fun and rewarding at the same time.

I have a lot of trouble following through with goals for some reason. I'm trying hard to keep myself accountable and hoping for the best. 

How do you fight off emotional eating? 

Things have been looking up for me. I have had a way better week. I'm exercising again and enjoying it, and I'm eating mostly only when I'm hungry.

As of this week it's that time of the month, so things are a little off, but I understand why. It was also my son's birthday today so there was an abundance of sweets.

Tomorrow I will feel like I can get back into my routine after today's celebration. I was so buy and also having some cramps so I passed on exercise today.

I did see a picture of myself tonight and I wasn't too happy with it. I felt chubby to be honest. I will do my best to leave it at that and not think too much about it. I'm doing my best right now and I want to be kinder to myself.

Here is to a better day tomorrow.

Binge Eating

I have been binge eating or more so emotional eating lately. I was told by someone to wait 15 minutes once you have the feeling to binge and just try to figure out what is going on that is making you want to binge.

I really didn't think it was possible for me. If you are a binge eater you know the feeling of anxiety and panic that just suddenly comes over you, your hunger level shoots up to level 10 in minutes.

 This happened last night as I was packing up my families lunches. I walked out of the kitchen and forced myself to sit there and journal it out. Guess what? It worked!! I felt so great. The feeling subsided and I was calm again. I'm not sure what was making me eat, but the good thing is I was able to stop it in it's tracks.

I will be using this tool as I see how well it does work. In the moment before a binge you feel so powerless, but that is obviously not true. I'm in control!

I even noticed a slight drop in the scale this morning which tells me that when I follow the principals of Intuitive Eating the scale moves. I know I have pretty much maintained this weight for about 2 years, but I also know that my bouts of emotional/binge eating have held me back from reaching my body's natural weight.

Here is to another great day!

Bad Week

I will be straight forward, I'm pmsing and just not feeling myself. I have been eating emotionally or more so binge eating again. I can't say when the last time was that I binged before this week.

I feel so lost and out of control. Usually my eating habits change during the week before my cycle, but this feels way beyond my control lately. Just before writing this I had checked my cabinets about 10 times trying to talk myself out of shoving something else in my mouth.

Right now I realize that food isn't what I need. I'm bored, extremely sleepy and really just need rest. I didn't have a productive day. I spent way too much time on the computer. I usually feel useless when I do that, but it's done and tomorrow is a redo right?

Hurricane Sandy

We were hit pretty hard by Sandy here in New York. It's so terribly sad to see so many people that have lost everything. I'm so grateful to say we only lost power for two days. Other than that a tree just missed my apartment door by a foot or so thank God for that!

This is the view we had

The hard part is just picking up the pieces and getting back to normal.  We are now in the panic stage here and people are on line for over 2 hours for gas. We are currently just about out of gas and are hoping they deliver some more soon! The good thing is that my hubby can catch the bus in front of our complex for work if needed...Thank God! This is a time to reflect and really appreciate the little things in life that we all take for granted. 

I have been emotionally eating this past week because of the anxiety and heart break of this storm. I can't use this as an excuse though. 

 

At Peace

I have been very relaxed and peaceful (Thank God) the past few days. This seminar with Matthew Kelly has really gotten me focused. I feel like I'm getting things done and I have felt a lot more energy and drive.

I have been meditating for 10 min for the past 2 days. I have tried to do this in the past and never stuck with it. It does take time and focus, but I feel like the benefits are so worth it. It just takes some getting used to.

Today I tried to make a dessert, but it was a flop. I had the keebler mini graham crusts and I tried to make apple crisp...fail! It just didn't come out right. I didn't have flour so I made the crumble topping without it and I think that was the problem. It was just not what I was hoping for. I will have to try again. I love those little crusts, I'm thinking of trying a pumpkin cheese cake or pie next week...stay tuned.

Living With Passion and Purpose

This weekend I attended a seminar with Matthew Kelly called Living With Passion and Purpose. I really enjoyed it. I received a little good bag, love those! I have a copy of Matthew's new book Off Balance http://www.amazon.com/Off-Balance-Work-Life-Professional-Satisfaction/product-reviews/159463081X/ref=dp_top_cm_cr_acr_txt?ie=UTF8&showViewpoints=1. I'm going to start reading this today!

At the seminar he covered many topics. In a nutshell it boils down to being the best version of yourself. I feel more focused and equipped with set guidelines to really start to makes moves instead of saying I'm going to.

He mentioned how many people say that don't know what their purpose in life is. I'm one of those people for  sure. He said it's in the silence that God speaks to us. If we spend 10 min a day in the school of silence as he calls it, we will find more peace to hear from God as to what we should be doing in life.

I wanted to share a few quotes he mentioned that I enjoyed.


" If you are what you should be you will set the world on fire" - St. Catherine

"When we switch the focus off ourselves to other our lives become a dance for joy" Matthew Kelly

"Every journey towards something is a journey away from something" Matthew Kelly


Remember to ask yourself this question as it relates to everything you do in live - Will this bring out the best version of myself?



Enjoy your week!